Even though college keeps me very busy, I had a chance to reflect these past couple days of how my life was actually going here. I realized how much I've changed from being in high school, as well as my friends, and it's a weird feeling.
I am loving college. I really want to start this with the positives. I have friends that I hang out with all of the time. I am getting used to living by myself which I kind of love even though I was scared at first. Academics are manageable, but I do all my work and haven't missed an assignment or a class yet. I'm not too far from home so I've been able to see my family. I'm staying active by playing rugby and going on walks at night with my friends.
I didn't expect to have all the time in the world, yet no time at all. I'm a planner. I plan everything. I'm so organized to the point where I plan my full days to the hour to make sure I get what I need to get done for the day. I'm pretty on top of things for the most part. It's just all the spontaneous stuff that happens where I go wrong. I am so much better at being ok with changes to my schedule now that I'm used to it here. I just love hanging out with people. Sometimes I just wanna talk to someone to get the things in my brain out so I can focus, so I started almost planning for spontaneous things.
My sleep schedule is wack because of this. I go to bed late and wake up early. I'm so sleep deprived, but since I'm an extrovert I get my energy off of talking to people and being around people. So that's what I do and it works for me.
There's also so much to do at Bryant that I wish I could do it all. My schedule fills up so fast with these activities they host almost every day, and I just love being a part of this community. Like today I have rugby practice, but I can also decorate pumpkins if it ends early. I don't know if this is a Bryant specific thing, but I love that college is like this. And yeah there are parties too and those kind of stuff, but it isn't necessary to have fun here which I love.
I've utilized a lot of the resources here already which is awesome. I'm giving tours in the spring as a student ambassador, so I'm glad I can get a lot of these experiences under my belt so I can enhance my tours.
I still don't feel like I'm at college. It felt like such a bigger part of my life when I was waiting for it, but now that it is happening it just feels normal. I have a routine, and I have new things that happen everyday. I feel so grown up, but at the same time I don't feel like I'm old enough. I remember hearing people say "oh my sibling is in college" and right now I don't feel like that sibling. It's a weird feeling.
I'm gonna make this a compliment sandwich, or end on a make as my family says. I am really proud of myself and how far I've came. I can feel myself growing into someone, and it's a good feeling. I've learned so much academically, emotionally, and socially just by being here for almost 2 months. It feels normal almost now that I got my shit down. I make decisions for myself and it feels good to take care of myself. I'm learning how to work in groups and also excel as an individual. I found people that have the same views of life as me and I'm excited to meet more. We all knew college was gonna be a good experience for me, but now I actually feel that way.
