A lot of people have been telling me to not let other people or things take my joy away from me. It's been sticking with me lately, especially considering all the different types of people in my life have emphasized this. This has been quite a struggle for me. I have tried writing this blog post about it for a while and that is not usual for me.
I have recently learned how careful I am with my joy. I try to keep the things I really love to myself and I don't talk about them a lot because I fear other people's opinions will taint my joy. Sometimes I feel like people ruin the things I love, and I've come to learn that that isn't fair to me and to not let others ruin things I love. Especially when it comes to my self-love, I feel like sometimes people just want to break me down.
So I'm trying. I focus on doing things that make me happy and try to let go of the things that make me sad. The second part has been the hardest, and I don't know why. The main thing keeping me going is that every day I meet someone new. I gain a better connection with someone every day. I might lose someone once in a while, but there are so many people out there. I'll be okay.
I feel the negative things pull me back. I'm scared to put myself out there and take risks sometimes. I know I'm not the only one. It's really draining to have to put yourself out there, but my urge to get to know people keeps me going. By putting myself out there, more people say hi to me on campus and I get food and study with a bunch of different people.
title: Where Do We Go From Here by Alicia Keys
