There is something so freeing about being happy.
I have never thought of January as a "fresh start" kind of month, since I typically have a big self-growth phase towards the end of my semester, and already enact plans in December. This year, however, I spent 3 weeks in Italy in January. This trip allowed me to go hands-deep into a culture other than my own, and meet amazing people on and off the trip. I found a part of me that LOVES solo travel, and I hope to do more in my future. I felt at peace in life, even though I had just met these people. I found some lifelong friends, the kind that Bryant produces. Italy was the fresh start I needed for this semester, and I came in with clarity and an urge to meet more people on campus.
I put on my extrovert pants and made a rule to myself to strengthen my relationships and find my forever people. I've gotten meals with so many different people these past few weeks, and went out with them as well. Even my friends have started becoming friends, and everyone has been so kind.
Sometimes, we get lost in the "what-ifs" and forced friendships, but why should I doubt myself if I'm already trying and doing new things and am happier? Ilona Maher, my favorite rugby player, said in an interview that she doesn't have imposter syndrome and how she's worked hard for the stuff she's earned. That's how I feel too. I've reached out to these people that have become my friends, and they've reached out to me as a result. There's so much love in my life, and I can't believe it took me this long to realize the people bringing me down. I want to surround myself with people who are kind and motivated and friendly, and I'm doing just that.
This year, I am really trying to not focus on hate, but rather love. As much as I love people and learning, they can hurt. Last semester, I focused too much on the hate, and it made me sad. Focusing my mentality takes time, but its worth it to me. I'm so grateful that I've found people that lift each other up and want to live in the moment, and now I feel like my goals are more achievable.
